So Azira, no regrets?

I have encountered this kind of question so many times.  So many times that I can easily dismiss any further question on that.  Truthfully, I have never answered this question.  Most of the time, my best answer would be a smile with/without blank face (on my not so good day).  Its not good, I know.  But, my justification would be one that I do not owe any explanation to any body.  Telling people my regrets (if any) is like opening my big black (or green, or pink) book  for them to read.  There's nothing wrong with telling people your regrets and i'm not against it. It just that you have to really know the person before you do so..or else, its like giving he/she bullets for her/him to kill you..(this is a highly prejudicial statement, I know. but somehow or rather, I've learnt that life could be harsh on you).


Yesterday, I faced this question again. I know it was a sincere question and she expected a sincere answer.  But, to my own regret, the best i could answer was "don't ask" which i know by itself have clearly answered the question.  I should have smile and just keep my mouth shut.  Me and my big mouth. What else is new.  But its ok, what more can i say. Damage is done. She then replied, "if you are going back to practice, you have to serve at least two years". "Yes, i'm aware of that" was my answer to her statement. And what followed was silence...long one.  

“Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable.”